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Daily Déjà Vu

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2001

 

 

One day a plane hit a building

then another plane

then another building.

 

My father sent me a newspaper clipping

a full front-page photograph with a caption

and an enormous bold black headline

as angry as a cold black fist in the pit of my stomach.

 

Since that day the grey tones of life have diminished.

 

Black and white is louder now.

 

Two bold choices scare me.

 

I get terrified when the comfort and safety of colors fade

when poetry can’t take me home

when coffee shops are tense with lying laughter

when the vice of black and white squeezes my crystal soul.

 

 

 

Eating Sorrow

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An Experiment in Haiku - Ninja Style

 

Dinnertime

Place setting for one

Cup of tears; plate of lonely

I eat the sorrow.

 

 

A dancing ninja can put a little caffeinated whimsy in the saddest of poems. I’m honored every time he comes to balance my soul with his happy sword!

Whimsical, Wizardly Wisdom

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Wizard Text

 

I’m no wizard. Just a fledgling and an aging poet sometimes inspired by a whimsical inner wizard .  .  .  .

 

Crustose lichen

 

Rock Stillness

The carnival days of youth

No future but the present.

Joyriding in open-hooded cars

Convertibles of two-toned pastels

with vanilla leather seats

Colors young and soft and innocent

no longer mine.

Now I choose deep, bold colors

colors with saturation of wisdom

and experience

and longevity.

But how I long sometimes

for those convertible days

those rapidly shifting ways of being.

I’m rock stillness now

I dress in moss-feathered fur coats

and wear lichen-splattered jewels.

The archival grace of aging.

Homage to Them

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Mom & Dad - FramedToday is the one-year anniversary of mother’s death. My dad passed away in 2013, a year before her.

In my life, I’ve observed several ways in which people grieve. Some mourn their parents by becoming them before they die. A sort of understudy, or dress rehearsal, that prepares them for the transition.

Some mourn them by taking on their habits and personalities after they disappear. A sort of preservation and transfer of spirit.

Others mourn through stages of grief, rather like climbing a terraced garden for many, many years. What looks like a walking meditation of stair-climbing and mezzanine pauses.

For me, I mourn my parents by thinking of what I want to gain from them. Qualities that I want to be gifted from each to push me forward on my own private path.

I’ve written a poem of remembrance for my mother and for my father. Each is a realization that came after they vanished from the physical world. Together they are pleas of love that I want to swallow as I make my way alone.

1950

You

in white lace tapered like an inverted art nouveau

orchid vase

its open-blossomed lip spilling out

around you in a pleated puddle

on your mother’s emerald lawn.

You

in a delicate needle-lace veil

rippling long, long down your back.

Your short chic coal-black hair

with just a hint of sassy.

Your lips like a ruby parting

as you smiled a keyboard of ivory.

All hope and love were stitched

into that exquisitely intricate dress

And

the way you held your slender body

and faced the camera straight on

No doubt. No hesitation.

That would come later.

But on that hot afternoon in August

you were extraordinarily confident

in your beauty

and your call to duty as a post-war wife.

Later I would dearly crave the structure of your grace

for my own moment of marriage.

Your awkward introverted little girl

started early to practice.

To memorize.

The Polaris star

My North Star

Until your light went out

I never knew how brightly you lit my way.

Until your needle stood still

I never called you my compass.

Wherever I’ve lived

I’ve watched the night sky.

Before crawling into bed

I search for the North Star.

Instead of prayers

I hold my gaze on that dogged, unwavering star.

I never knew I was searching for you each time –

to get me through the night and its following day.

You were my constancy

though separated by thousands of miles

Just knowing that you were in the world –

in the world standing still and simply being my Dad

Gave me safety in chaos.

Now I can feel the earth tremble.